Hoping to share the love, joy, and grace I have received in my own life.

New Direction

on June 10, 2015

Have you ever felt like you needed to make a u-turn in your life?  I feel as if I made an extraordinary u-turn in mine and the freedom and peace I have received from my change of direction is invaluable.  I had been wanting to change jobs.  In a series of events , which I now understand God’s hand was on entirely, I left a highly stressful job to become a part-time  administrative assistant for a local church.  The day I turned in my letter of resignation is second to Trevor’s death as the most profound u-turn in my life.  Everything shifted in each of those events.  My life would never be the same.  As I handed my boss the letter and explained that I was looking for more in my life, I got the impression that he felt as if I was taking a step down the career ladder. If the career ladder meant more to me, he could have been right.  However that was not the ladder I was destined to climb.  My job had become one of such stress that I dreaded going to the office each day.  Following Trevor’s death, I wasn’t really able to take the time I needed to grieve.  Although life does go on, as a mother who has lost a child, it is extremely difficult to keep up with the stresses of the world and heal your heart.  I remember frequently thinking that I just needed the world to stop for one day.  I wanted one day to catch up with my thoughts and my feelings and to refill my cup of life.  In church one Sunday morning, the pastor asked for prayer for a change in administration of the church, as the current assistant had taken another position.  I thought to myself how nice it would be if I could take the job and work in the church, but felt it was impossible. The job was only part-time and I knew would be less income for our family.  That afternoon I prayed for God to show me a way to be able to make this change.  I knew that I would be good for the church and the church would be good for me.  In a turn of events nothing short of miraculous, I was interviewed and accepted the position that same week.  I gave two weeks notice to my prior employer of the past 10 years and my life did a 180.  As I turned in my resignation, a wave of peace rushed over me.  I felt as if my life was about to slow down, yet I had no idea what a total change it would make for not only myself but my family, as well.  I began this new position in February.  After only four months, the u-turn in my career path has made me new.  I feel as if I have another chance at life.  I wish that I could truly convey the joy and peace that comes from this change of direction.  I am reminded of the woman at the well.  Jesus offered her the water and said she would “never be thirsty again.”  He was offering her a u-turn, much like was offered to me.  I have been called in a new direction.  This is my new beginning.  Much like a u-turn while driving reverses our direction, I feel as if my life has been redirected.  In Luke 19, Zacchaeus  had a change of heart.  He trusted in God’s grace and acted on his faith.  I have done the same.  I have a new love for God.  I love my life, my marriage, my family, my job, and my friends.  When Trevor died, the old me died with him, but God’s grace has made me new.  The u-turn restored my faith.

Jesus answered, “I assure you, unless someone is born anew, it’s not possible to see God’s kingdom. ~John 3:3


One response to “New Direction

  1. Mike Pence says:

    You have already been such a blessing to our church.

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